laying the ghosts to rest

I m sure this sentiment i m going to share has happened to many of us, it started out in my college days back in the time when naivity was rules, well love is not the first one in that list. But eventually with all ideas we do fall, fall we do from the utmost height.
Its amazing what it does to you when it happens, those were the best days of my college life, thought me to live, to give and to receive, but somewhere down that lane it falls, it falls from the same height but to a fathom deeper, its pained and broken, i may blame myself for it or my luck, but as i look back its not anything but the immaturity to understand the subtle things in a relationship which does us in.
What was lost was not love but a part of life in itself, that feeling of home, happiness was just gone, you become another person again, which for a long time will haunt the way we have never wanted, its pretty silly to write this thing on a blog, but wanted to finally rest my case, all that anger, sadness, pain should finally end with just letting it flow away like the wind blowing to take away the heat.
I am still pretty much wondering if what i did was right because I felt so much at home like i never felt Before, but sometimes in solitude just cant stop feeling that emptiness, its a sad thing to know someone where at a point you make so much changes, compromises and sacrifices just to enjoy the fact that you love each other, and which in one streak of mindless madness turns out to be a disaster , ii hope by this writing i can wash the monkeys on my back...
Still life is so long and at the same time short, don’t want to brood and lie static at one time.